I Prayed For You

Dear Love of My Life,

Did you know I said a prayer for you today? I prayed for your health, for your happiness, for your spiritual wellbeing. I asked God to protect you, to heal you, to keep you safe always and forever. I asked God to always let me be the one you want in your life and asked Him to make me always be enough for you and to be what you need and want. I also thanked God today for bringing you into my life, for letting me be the one who gets to love you and be loved by you. I thanked Him for the road that led us to the same path. It hasn’t always been easy, but we’ve gotten to where we need to be. Each day we get stronger, more connected. I believe God helped that to happen, so I thanked him. I hope you know I pray to God about you a lot. He brought me to where I was always meant to be and I’m blessed to have this life with you.

Love,

Your Wife

Prayer

I once heard someone say they don’t know how to pray. That was a foreign concept to me as I’ve never not prayed, but I also never put much thought into how I pray. I talk to God in my mind. I speak out loud. When I’m really upset with life I scream at Him and ask him why. A misconception is people believe you have to be in a church for God to hear you. That you have to talk to him a certain way. God hears you wherever you are, however you speak to him. Even if your way is just letting tears fall from your eyes. The silence is filled with words you don’t realize. Make your prayers your own. Be it to God, or another higher power, your relationship is your own. Your conversation is your own.

Thankful for my wife

Fall Fun at Dickert Farm

I was going about my day and I decided I just needed to take a moment to write. I needed to take a moment to write about the person who has changed my life for the better. This picture is of me and my wife. I recently told her I wanted to spend some time on developing my writing on this blog. She has confidence in me even when I’m not quite sure of the direction I’m going. We haven’t had the easiest relationship. We’ve actually had a lot of people who have tried to say and do things that were cruel, heartless, and abusive. People who we trusted and thought cared about us. But here we are. A little over 3 years later, stronger than ever. We have stumbled along the way, but the great thing about falling in love with your best friend is that we have always been there to catch the other. I’ve learned things about her, and her about me, and we have found what works best for us. She is an amazing mom. She’s talented, smart, beautiful. She has a good heart. I’m very lucky God decided she would be my person. I’ll spend the rest of my life making sure she knows how much she means to me and how thankful I am for her. The crazy thing is, I know she will do the same thing for me. She is my truth. She is my soulmate. With her beside me, there truly is nothing I can’t do, nothing I can’t accomplish, no day I can’t face, no obstacle I can’t overcome. On my hard days, she’s beside me. On my weakest days, she’s my strength. She will always be my focus. I love her, I love our family. Together, we grow. I’ll thank God every day for her and for our kids.

A reflection

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I don’t know the Bible inside and out. If I’m honest I didn’t become a regular church-goer until I became the secretary of one. But nonetheless, I do have verses that stick in my head. Ones I’ve found during struggles or times I’ve looked for motivation or comfort. One of my favorites is 2 Corinthians 4:8-10, which states:

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.”

These verses give hope in my eyes. The world is beating us down, things keep going wrong, every where we turn there is a struggle. But keep going because we are not crushed, we are no in despair, we are not abandoned, and we are not destroyed. Jesus died for our sins. That’s pretty heavy. So whatever we go through, we can make it through. It isn’t easy to keep that mentality when things are really hard. It’s easier to say, “I give up,” “It’ll never get better,” “I don’t want to do this life anymore.” But there’s hope. There is. Even in the worst of times, there’s still hope, there’s still some good just floating around waiting for you to see it, to focus on it. Today might be hard, but I woke up. I might face battles, scary battles, but I have the strength to keep going. I may have days where I feel lonely, but I’m never alone. I might have financial trouble, I might be barely getting by and have no clue how I will make ends meet, but I will make ends meet.

We all have choices. We can decide to collapse and fold when the pressure gets to be too much, or we can try to see the silver lining that isn’t standing out too brightly and keep moving forward. We can be pessimistic or we can be optimistic. Glass half full, or half empty (of if you’re like me, you yell to the bartender to fill ‘er up!). When life is becoming too much, reach out. A friend, a family member, an animal, God, whatever. Whatever keeps you going. Maybe you’ll even find comfort in repeating the verse above until it really sticks. I can do it. You can do it. We all can do it. We are not destroyed. We are just getting started.