I’ve been struggling for years with my weight. I want to lose weight, but I’m a hardcore emotional eater. Happy? Eat. Sad? Eat. Tired? Eat. So I eat, eat, eat and then get upset with myself. It’s a cycle I want to break. I have been overweight the majority of my life. When I got pregnant, I worked hard at eating right, gaining the lower amount of weight the doctor said, and exercising. I was exercising the night before I was induced hoping to get things moving along. I lost the baby weight quickly and then kept going. I got healthy for probably the first time in my life! It was a great feeling. I want to get back to that. I am hoping to use blogging as a way to help me control my emotional eating. I also have a caffeine addiction. I could probably lose some weight fairly quickly if I gave up Pepsi. I try to break the habit, do good for a while, but then end up drinking even more of it. It’s crazy. People don’t realize the food/drinks can be an addiction. It isn’t like you can just stop eating. Alcoholics need to stay away from alcohol. Drug addicts need to stay away from drugs. But food? Food is life. Can’t just quit it. I’m also a picky eater so it isn’t even like I overdose on strawberries. No. It’s sour patch kids. It’s soda. It’s just randomly eating whatever is around.
When I lost weight after giving birth, I just limited how much I ate. I still ate the foods I like to eat, just in moderation. But even when I do good with moderation, I don’t lose weight. Then I get mad and binge. And that solves nothing. Sound like you at all? Got any suggestions? I actually did Weight Watchers in the past. I did good with it too. I feel like I have no self-control. That’s a bad feeling. I also feel like not enough people understand it. If I could just stop, I would. I’ve looked into Overeaters Anonymous, looking for support from others who go through it. But it’s too sporadic in receiving messages and I couldn’t find anyone on the sponsor list looking for new people to sponsor. I want to be held accountable. I want to be able to work through my issues and be happy and healthier. I think I’m on my own. Hence, blogging! Anyhow. I’m planning on posting each day and see where I get with it all. Tomorrow’s post will have my starting weight, as I forgot to weight myself this morning. We’ll see if I’m able to get myself on track with my eating and starting losing. Fingers crossed!