Today is one of those struggling days. Knowing the only way to make things better is to do what they say. But if I can’t feel and am empty, how do I do that? I don’t know how I got mixed up in all of this. We just want a normal life, but we can’t have what we want. Yet the horrible people keeping us from having what we want are getting exactly what they want. Praying to God every night to make it all better. I can’t do it alone. I can’t. Why can’t He hear my pleas for help? No one knows what is going on except those living the nightmare. Only 2 good people against a house full of evil. I don’t know how we make it to the end with our lives still intact.