Life’s challenges

Today is one of those struggling days. Knowing the only way to make things better is to do what they say. But if I can’t feel and am empty, how do I do that? I don’t know how I got mixed up in all of this. We just want a normal life, but we can’t have what we want. Yet the horrible people keeping us from having what we want are getting exactly what they want. Praying to God every night to make it all better. I can’t do it alone. I can’t. Why can’t He hear my pleas for help? No one knows what is going on except those living the nightmare. Only 2 good people against a house full of evil. I don’t know how we make it to the end with our lives still intact.

Will I ever be enough?

It’s an internal struggle to not feel like enough. I have people in my life who think they make me feel like I’m not, and I try to reassure them that isn’t the case. I always feel like I could be doing more. Helping more, trying more. And it’s a fight inside of me that never goes away. I want to do as much as possible for those I love. But sometimes there isn’t enough time, money, resources, etc. And I feel like I’m falling short. I don’t know how to tell myself to stop. I don’t think I ever will. If you love with all your heart you should be able to fix all, heal all, but I fall short. Because I’m just not enough.